Dreams or possible reality?

I wish the thoughts flying around in my head would either become reality or escape into the abyss to never resurface. It is possible that I'm the only one that feels this way, but it is still in my heart and mind. So what do I do about it? I am working towards one day hopefully fulfilling my dreams and aspirations, but at this point right now, I feel like it is impossible. Its like I am sitting in the practice rooms, just practicing for hours upon hours, trapped in that room. Wanting and waiting to be "decent" enough to one day actually play. Not just to play but to really play, fully with emotion and life play the story. Be apart of the show. In the stone cold walls of this room I feel that I am staying still, like life outside that door has kept time and I am off beat. Like I will never get out of the practice room, that I'm in an ulterior world. Maybe right now I am just on the wrong song, maybe my song isn't up until a few more tracks are done. What if it isn't the case though? What if I am not even close? What if I'm not even on the record? Does that mean that I should just go back to the practice room? Or should I just put down the instrument, the pen, close my mouth with lips tight shut and walk away? Would that be escaping into the abyss? Or just silencing my heart? Would that be better? Than to just keep trying to attain the dreams and aspirations that seem so impossible, so that the even slight possibility of playing will never again return? I wish the thoughts flying around in this empty cavity once filled with an organ, would make some kind of regular activity to create a breeze that would push dreams and aspirations into reality, for just working for them alone does not seem to create a melody.